明天去看Da Vinci Code，回来就好好读书了，周三约了老师，大概知道写些什莫，慢慢来吧！Mission Impossible永远都是Possible的，不是吗？哎？我要不要去看 MI3？哈哈，算了！

   Finished Org. Theory 5000 words big assignment, suddenly my sky so bright, haha... havn't really seen the blue sky for ... didn't remember for how long, my time is totally messed up, now is 4:30am, i am still in a clear mind, these 2 weeks time, i was like a worm, crouched in my flat, did not go out for ages, my goodness, but prepared to go back guildford the day after tomorrow.      

 But i began to feel to complete a essay is like a crafting process, like what we learnt in the qualitative research lecture. it is like a piece of art, from a blank paper, to full of letters, haha... not only letters, but to learn how to organise what you know, what you read, i don't really like brain storming, sometimes it is suffering, cuz you cannot think any ideas, but finally when you finish it, you always know what you learnt is much beyond what you wrote down. although i said i just want to pass, desire nothing else, but i think i still have some ambitions to get higher marks, hehe... ... of course pass is always the bottom line.  

It's a belate White X'mas 

ICE COLD

how can be like this? so cold, snowed a bit yesterday, quite big snow, but just a while, hope more will come in the new year. The thing is: freezing outside, but in the room no heating, no hot water, had twice ice cold shower, then i became to know now what is called suffering, when will they come to replace our boiler? Come On !!! Quick !!! 

p.s. i don't understand why they open air conditioning in a such small lecture room, even colder than outside, is it because they think it will make us more concentrate to the lecture??? well, i felt sleepy as usual, but just with my coat on.   

The first week finally finished, “Hurray” I am still alive! Then I will have 3 days off, hope I can finish reviewing what I studied this week, go through all the papers, and I need to have full preparations for the next week lectures.

Each day, when I met my classmates I would think “will I become the person like them?” Now, I am lost, I don’t know, I don’t know what the answer under my sub-conscious is. I Hope? Or not? Most of them had plenty working experiences before, 2 of them especially are successful business women. I always remembered one of them said to YuJen, “when you search jobs, when you had interviews, when you plan your careers, when… you have to make people to know you have ambitions, and actually you have to have as well…” To be a Christian, we cannot disjoint with the society, with the real world, but at the same time, can we still hold a pure heard? I did not mean “ambition” is a bad thing, but I don’t want, is it because I don’t have actually?

Today I was not in the mood, the lecturer talked about something related to the social and business ethics, I eventually found that I am interested, but I cannot add any comment on the case he presented, unfortunately nobody likes me! After school, I went to the nearest super-market ASDA, had some super shopping, bought a whole chicken, I forgot my allergy, anyway I ate it straight way after I back to my dormitory. Of course did not finish them all, shared with Rachel and Tina, the left for the next a few days.

I was so happy that I made some friends in the Chinese church; they are very warm welcomed and friendly to me, and called me several times to ask if I am all right, and to join the fellowship and the church with them. Mrs. Ma called me this evening, a lovely, fashionable, kind lady, she asked me to play the keyboard in Sunday church on 18 Dec, because their serving schedule of the next 3 months was determined, so when they set up the new one, will include me in the future. Also as the church and the fellowship, most people are from HK, not many people speak Mandarin really, but they want to start a new group, Mrs. Ma asked me if I would like to do more things with the other two leaders Mark and Huixian, certainly I am so excited and accepted her invitation, although I am still cannot recognise everyone in the church. Hey, is this called “on fire”? The first time I experienced. Seems I never had actuation on serving things, although I would like to do it in Guildford, and I leant a lot from it. She also asked if I can lead worship, I did not refuse, but told her I seldom did it before, then she said I can practice more and grow with the fellowship, isn’t so wonderful!!!

Yes la… bad news and good news, always happened, and happened together, keep our eyes on those good aspects of the bad things, and try our best to make more good things happen to us…

 "But he knows the way that I take; when he has tested me, I will come forth as gold." (Job 23:10) 

 "然而他知道我所行的路，他试炼我之后，我必如精金。" (约伯记 23:10) 

New semester starts, although i am still experiencing the induction week, the pressure comes already without any warning, but my brand new days begins without any fear...

Top 10 What I NEED Now !!!

6. To be relax (don't fear of anything: soooooooo professional lectuers and classmates; scary lecture atmosphere; outline of the course; the standards of the courseworks and exams...)

7. Self-Confidence

8. The Passion of Study

9. To be more Sociable (with lecturers, classmates, also in my new fellowship)

10. The Understandability of Cantonese (most people in the fellowship from HK)

 "For I know the plans I have for you,' declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." (Jeremiah 29:11)

"耶和华说：“我知道我向你们所怀的意念，是赐平安的意念，不是降灾祸的意念，要叫你们末后有指望。" （耶利米书 29：11）

 I was back to Guildford for a few days already, not that missed home, this was surprised me, but also good for me, enjoyed the fellowship life, enjoyed to be with the friends here, and can be with baby James everyday, this makes feel great!!!  Talked to Crystal online, she is good, a bit tired, but her life seems getting better and better, hope she can come at the end of the year to visit us     

  "凡遵行神旨意的人，就是我的弟兄姐妹和母亲了。"  (马克福音 3：35)

Just moved in Guildford Court for 3 days, suddenly my life become so rich, hehe... nearly party everyday, eat a lot, seafood @ 108 on Sat; Sunday lunch and dinner - Lillian's chicken rice; made registration form with Aaron, Aiping, and Ada; and party last night, dinner with Merlin, Ada, Aaron and Aiping...

 Everything needs a new start from now on... 6 days to baptism, 11 days to graduation - A start and an Ending, but also a new start, life like a cycle, but finally i have done all of these... i think i need more time to think about the last step which will be accomplished in a few weeks time, and the next step for my future. When I read the Nottingham Uni's webside, i asked myself, is it real i will go for study? Did I check the result by mistake? cus i havn't have the final certificate for my degree. and i havn't received the matriculate letter either, also is this the right choice for me? Although i really would like to go...

On saturday, when i helped lillian cooked the sunday lunch, she said some really blessing and encouraged words to be, i was really moved, even cannot belive i can left all of these friends behind, and start a new page in another place. sounds a bit blue, but i think i will be good, in a few days, weeks, or months time, anyway everything must have an ending then can be have a start, so just face it... 

我不会再轻易流泪，它让我看不清美丽的夜景，
　　看不清青山碧水的可亲可爱，
　　看不清迎面而来的笑脸，
　　也看不清我们的爱究竟走了有多远。□

'耶稣对信他的犹太人说:" 你们若常常遵守我的道，就真是我的门徒。你们必晓得真理，真理必叫你们得以自由。" '（约翰福音 8：31-32）

'To the Jews who had believed him, Jesus said, "If you hold to my teaching, you are really my disciples. Then you will know the truth, and the truth will set you free." (John 8:31-32)

Finally finish packing all my staff, "TIRED" !!! It is unbelievable, I have 6 big case + 2 smaller cases + 2 extra packs for clothes + 2 backpacks + 1 basket + 1 bucket + 1 guitar + 1 laptop + 1 TV and a small case of text books (have to sell them before move again)

All my friends wish me a bright future, seems much happier than me, hehe... "Congratulations!!!" but why i feel upset? I am really really really happy with my results, achieved the level and be qualified to any university i applied, but... why? why? why? Can You my Lord tell me Y? I hope just simply leave me alone, let me to think, to pray, or to do nothing... 

 This JUNE should be the most significant month in my entire life, get the result and the offer to go to Nottingham University on 1 June, get baptism on 12, graduate on 17, join the first camp with my fellowship on 24 - 27, say goodbye to Crystal, then go back home on 28, arrive home on 29. Let it pass quickly!!! Want to be HOME, I got homesick, miss all of you...

"父啊！我将我的灵魂交在你手里。"（路加福音 23:46）

"Father, into your hands I commit my spirit." (Luke 23:46)

  Just called back home, talked with my mum, two grannys & grandpa, two uncles, and my cousin who was still in bed, hehe...          

So happy, cannot wait to go back home, miss them so much, havn't seen one of my uncle and 2 of my grannys for a couple of years already... i just wanna go home...

Go home ar... go home... but i have lots of things to do before go back home, will be very busy these days, tomorrow 9:45 Sports Hall - philip will drive me and maggie to JB's house, learn how to set up a tent, cus we gonna join a camp on sunday evening, then worship lesson at 2:30pm, baptism course at 5pm, Rachel's farewell, BBQ at 108 at 6pm.

Sunday moring church service at 10am, worship guitar lesson after the service, go for shopping some food afterwards, then pack up staff for the camp, go to the camp in the evening with aiping, philip, ada, and maggie...

back from the camp on tuesday morning, then have to start packing my staff, prepare to move to guildford court, move most staff to 108 first, then move on the coming friday, 3 June to the new room...

Just loving getting busy...

Some lovely staff:

So Boring, I want to go back my room now, but raining cats and dogs outside, i am in the MS building, waiting for my handout print out from that machine, so many people waiting there, MY GOD!!! wanted to catch the last risk management lecture, but nobody in the lecture room, i think that's it, no more lectures in my undergraduate life, the last strategic marketing lecture was missed this morning, luckily i have rachel, so nice girl, i am considering she will be a christian soon, cus she has the heart... 

Feel really tired, want to have lots of sleep, the happiest moment in a day is getting ready to go to bed, and the saddest moment is have to get up...

Thanx God, finally finished my print, have to go back, the last two weeks, should add more oil...

"疲乏的，他赐能力；软弱的，他加力量。" （以赛亚书 40：29）

"He gives strength to the weary and increases the power of the weak." (Isaiah 40:29)

"我们要靠主常常喜乐！" （腓立比书 4：4）

"Rejoince in the Lord always." (Philippians 4:4)